November 25, 2015

About 15 or so days before I came across the below. I was contemplating about my Father’s passing which was impossible for me to do since he left, just only because I truly miss him so much and cannot bear thinking of him without falling to pieces. He left many many things in his private room which I will need to help him to organise now that he is gone. What makes it hard, is that I am still unable to organise it, and have procrastinated this action for almost 2 years now. He passed away on Jan 4th, 2014 at 9.45PM or so. Not one single item in his room is of any monetary value, nor of any use to anyone else, and it is still very hard for me to even “let go” of 1 single item, because each item, has meant something to him.. and when I walk into his room, I can smell his presence, I can feel his character, I can feel how much he loved being in this crowded room, and I can sense he is still there. I really don’t want to move anything in his room.. as I can just go there and sit in his favourite chair, pour over every little trinket of his hearts desire, and feel him there with me again. It has made me think of my own mortality, and how much each one person can accumulate in their lifetime.. so many material things we think we need to make us happy, but in the end, are just “things”, that we cannot take with us when it is time for us to go. My Father adoringly only asked me to remember to put his glasses in his pocket with him in his final resting bed, to take with him, so he would not be blind and could help him find his way. I gave him 1 pair of glasses. I should have given him all his glasses.. which could be easily 20 to 30 pairs.. to make sure he would see whatever he thought he might see. This made me realise that we cannot take a SINGLE THING with us when we pass on. Not even our own bodies! I have been pondering over this for days on end recently.. and then..suddenly…. I came across Steve Jobs last words on some FB page I was surfing for no reason, and just today, I discovered that these last words are possibly fake, and not spoken or written by Steve Jobs at all. There is no evidence whether it is “authentic”, but no one could only remember Steve Jobs wealth but forget his priceless contribution to all of mankind. The message is still real and true for me, and now, its comforting to know I’m not so crazy to have these thoughts! Of course I am NO STEVE JOBS.. hahaha.. FARRRR from it..or whoever wrote this excerpt, but what does makes us all similar.. small or large, whatever skin color, however wealthy, however fortunate or unfortunate, we all have 1, or maybe 2 sure common denominators connecting every single being in this vast Universe TOGETHER. That we ALL came into this life, and we will also all leave this life, leaving nothing behind except our memories and spirit, achievement, and failures, our good and our bad. All our “things”, material possessions, could possibly be a burden to our loved ones.. and also weigh down this entire earth, because, maybe one of these days….. as I now wonder… what happens to all the “STUFF” that all human beings leave behind? Because, when we are gone, all the STUFF, that once meant much to someone, and nothing to others, can last for millenniums to come? Read More…